Live for yourself.

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There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise.

~Emery Allen

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We are back to routine.

After our wonderful winter holidays, it took me a while to get in to routine. Buddy was far much better than I. On first day after a long break he was super excited to meet his friends at day care.. Meanwhile, I took a short break from all the gadgets surrounding me. 

Its almost one and half week since we came back from our trip. We were busy with several play dates and my german course. Today, we had Friday movie night at home along with Buddy’s friendImage and her two elder brothers. They watched kids movies “Schaun Scharf”. Its always fun for me to have kids at home and to know that they are enjoying with us while their parents are away. We had fun cooking together and watching movie.

On this weekend, buddy and I have decided to go to Sea life. I am really excited to take him there and to explore, learn with him while his Dadda is away. We are already missing you Dadda and cn’t wait to see you home.

Note to Myself..

 Sooner or later you tend to seek change in life. Human mind is processed like that. You always look for something else, which is good, if you know that you’ll (are) enjoying doing it. One must stay hungry until he or she dies.

If you say you will be settled after kids, having house or bank balance, its not settlement. Its your necessity. There is nothing called security or settlement in life. Life is about exploring, dreaming, realizing your dreams and to work on your dreams, If you don’t than “who” would do it for you. Spend on your learning, your personal growth. Money and material has no end. But one should try everything he or she likes in lifetime. Give your self time, enjoy the phase, do not let anyone stop dreaming you. Do what you feel like doing. Its good to think more than doing anything, talk about it as much as you can, you will get your answers. No one knows you better than you know yourself. Be true to yourself!!

Everyone is confused in this world. No body knows the formula of success, you can not live anyone’s life. You just have to keep trying. ONE DAY YOU WOULD certainly know WHERE YOUR PASSION LIES.  People spend whole of their lifetime just doing things which they would not have liked doing it. They are doing just because others have done it or they think it would be easy to follow someone. They have had realized but it is too late for them to bring back passed years. Just be careful about it.

You are doing wonderful so far and I am sure you will continue doing it. You are too young to be satisfied!!
Keep exploring, keep searching, Keep committing mistakes. If you won’t do mistakes, you won’t grow. Do not expect too much from your self. You won’t get this free and relax time.

I held those tears.

Day begun with excitement and fun. Another Saturday, to enjoy together and it was too bright outside. We as a family are always in excitement to keep each other happy, to do something together. It could be staying home and playing with our little boy or going out to explore new places or eating out, every time at new restaurant. We had have always loved to go out rather than sitting home and watching Television.
My hubby was so excited to play cricket tournament this afternoon and he was all set. Since he was practicing regular.  It was me who encouraged him to take part in some group sport. He is a family man, his whole world is around his work and his family. I do not want him to go today as i never liked to be without him when there is weekend. We always do things together whether its going for weekly grocery shopping or running daily errands.Yes, apart from cooking.
This saturday, I wanted to spend time with him. But at the same time I did not want him to stay home and miss playing. He left home this afternoon and we have plan to go there, during the second half of the day. As it was too hot outside, I decided to stay back home with our little boy and planned to go out in the second half of the day. It was 16uhr and I have not got any call from him. I tried calling him on his mobile and it was out of network coverage. I thought he left his mobile phone in the car. I continued watching a documentary movie on Greece on its current state. Our little boy was awake by that time from his afternoon nap. We both were so excited to go out with him once he will come back and to hear how did he play.

Around 17uhr, I got a call from his friend saying he got injured and has been taken to emergency surgery clinic in Heidelberg. I could not ask much as I was broken. He said he will send somebody to pick us from home, to visit him in the hospital. He is the most delicate person in our family. He cries when he sees someone in pain or even if he gets headache.When we were on the way to hospital he sent me a message on my mobile *  Don’t worry things will be fine. But its going to take some time and trouble for you, I am sorry*.

We reached hospital and when I hugged him I wanted to shed those tears. This could be my normal reaction. But this was the first time, i held those tears. I did not cry at all. I knew that I can not stay with him in the hospital with our little boy. He has to be there alone in the hospital. And I have to be with our little one at home.

Doctors told us that his ankle joint got dislocate along with three fractures in the leg. He needs to be operated by tomorrow morning. I felt so helpless for a while, I thought we have no one here from our family. But the second thought came in to my mind was, It is important for us that he should get better and come back home soon. I wish God give us strength to deal with this situation and I pray for his speedy recovery. He is one of the best human being, I have ever met. I know he won’t suffer much, he is harmless and a very kind person.

“Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts”. Arnold Bennett.

To be Compassionate.

For past one month,I have been practicing a ritual, to have a look on my day spent.I am thinking about the people I have met and talked to,and how I have treated them and how did they?What did I learn from my experiences today? Its not only bringing me happiness but helping me to frame my day properly. I have found a sudden change in my thinking process,I am having all good thoughts about others.I am happy with in myself.
I believe compassion to be the life’s harder lesson to learn. Being compassionate means being a real human being with a particular purpose in life. Having a purpose means leading a real life which is being lived having in mind the idea of sharing: sharing love, peacefulness and compassion. It is important to develop empathy for fellow human being.Instead of finding problem in others and having a feeling of jealous,hatred and to find differences.At the end of it we all are Human being.We all need common things like Food,shelter and Love.
“If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. Dalai lama